im just damn sad
dam stress
feel like withdrawing
hais
feel like crying
feel like yelling
feel
helpless.

' Would you give up your vengeance against someone you hate if it meant
saving someone you love?

Change Of Heart-Jodi Picoult ' qouted from ...

i can start this off by writing a gp essay but i think i will mostly digress and digress and goes on and on with the list. so to cut it short,i did that but i ended up falling too ):

i wonder when will the day come for me to pluck up enough courage and clear this misunderstandings?

ya allah,berilah aku kekuatan dan kepercayaan dalam diriku. aku hanya hambamu. walaupun aku tahu aku tidak mulia. . .

'' physical abuse, in addition to its physical health consequences, has linked to cognitive delays, aggressive behaviour, peer difficulties, posttraumatic stress disorder, and other externalizing and internalizing behavioural propblems. Documented consequences of sexual abuse include low academic performance, depression, dissociation,inappropriate sexual behaviour,and other high-risk behaviours in later childhood. Emotional maltreatment, which is implicated in all other forms of maltreatment, leads to declines in cognitive and academic functioning as well as a variety of behavioural problems '' quote from irp period.

thank you (:

ya allah,
I think i need motivation
I lack the motivation
And i need time to study and finish up my tutorials
Hais
What am i suppose to do?
I have soooo many commitments to do
Yet when i look around me
I see people slacking
What kind of supportive motivation is that?
Ohh yeahh. Happy belated birthday my dear friend. I wanted to wish you on 13 march but now its kinda too late right? Omg! Its been a long time since i blog. haha. damn random. I love you.

Dear Nadiah,
I miss you
You have a nice smile/luffter
You make me happy
You should fly
Someday I will die..?
You + me = hrmm..
If I saw you now I'd call 4 u
I want to pinch you! =P
I would build an "err" just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be "she's like star" =P
We could sing-song under the stars.

Oh and I am nt going to post this under my notes

copied and paste from unknown . . .

im feeling so hopeless

do i regret taking A levels?

can i make it?

ARGHH

this is damn demoralizing!

`naddy

" there are a few rules i know to be true about love and marriage: if you don't respect the other person, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you don't know how to compromise, you're gonna have a lot of trouble and if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. " and don't cling to things because everything is impermanent (:

lifted from tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom

` naddy

ON THE WAYTO DFAC

COLLECTING CHEQUE!!

wuhoo(:

collect with these two gundus

atika was beside me!

ahha

mats carrying UMBRELLAS

dancing in the rain (:

hais. i wish for the answers to all my questions

why?

do you still care?

im confuse!

who? hais,

what to do?

` naddy

im over the stars and moon!
firstly,
i did not see it coming though. sobs sobs.
my OG,ROMANS 4,sang for me a belated birthday song
in the canteen
then suddenly the whole canteen started to sing for me :)
so paisehh
but thats not all. . .
they bought for me a birthday gift
so unexpected!
cos its damn belated lor. . .
secondly,
i spend some BONDING time with my wu shu team mates :)
we played pool!
and i suck big time
wahh lose all games
but so close to wining :(
lastly,
my birthday wish came true
you wished me happy birthday
and i love you for that
i wish, you would still be here for me
a friend for 4 years. . .
`naddy

hur hur
im so bored
feel wierd lately
ahha
funny how the way you look at me
ouhh yeahh
i have a study date on the 14 FEB
ahha
funny right
i want to study hard
i really do
hais
but i dont have self discipline
sobs
im tired. . .
`naddy

omg
cool or what?
ahha. went rock climbing just now.
as in the natural rocks.
not rock wall.
WUHOO
damn syiok the feeling.
the pics with hakim lehh.
went with. . .
atika (:
hakim (:
kai (:
ariffin (:
vye rern (:
joy (:
ayub (:
and some people whom i just met. . .
and my internet is still down. sobs.

` naddy

" Mostly, they understood the importance of always moving forward, because if you stood in one place too long, you risked getting crushed by the boulder weight of regret "
lifted from saying goodbye by lisa gardner (:
my internet crash. cant blog that much. sobs.
will post pictures taken on friday(:
went town with inno. much loved.
`naddy

went to coffee beans & tea leaves yesterday (:
after their camp
i replaced for one day (:
my ' sayang ' so cute sia . . .
thanks wendy for treating us (:
had your pay right!
and today went al-ameen to eat dinner
with hakim, karen, shaqhil, fareez, miq & kai
played stupid games (:

ouhh. this one actually taken quite some time ago.

went to beach road to buy camp stuffs.

ahha. i went there to buy school shoes sia

now i remember

its the day before school start!

110109

ahaa. school sucks.

ouhh. and i already made up my mind (:

thanks fareez (:

& i miss my baby bat ):

literally. . .

` naddy

OKAYS.

THE CAMPFIRE PICTURES

ABIT DARK. I KNOW (:

have one nan chiau picture sesat here(:

ahha. the second picture (: LOL

IN THE PICTURES (:

ADHY (:

ATIKA (:

CELENA (:
SHAQHIL (:
HAKIM (:
CASS (:
RADZI (:
VYE RERN (:

AM (:

sorry if i miss anyone's name ):

` naddy

NAN CHIAU PRIMARY SCHOOL
a school camp that i'll remember always
really tested my patience and how well i could be strict but enjoyable at the same time
sobs. a difficult school. seriously.
but TRAINERS had alot of fun
this is what trainers do when we are bored (:
crappy (:

special thanks to those who entertain my craziness (:

ahha. HAKIM (: ATIKA (: SHAQHIL (: CASS (: VYE RERN (: CELENA (:

my buddies who assisted me yet pushing the work to me too. grr.

SHER JIE (: & AKMAL (:

ouhh and the pictures for the st mags camp is with celena

will update soon when i get the pictures (:

` naddy

BRIEFING at outram -.-
so FAR
went to eat and shop (:
for books actually
ahha
have NAN CHIAU PRI camp tomorrow!
and the campfire (:

Vye Rern ( CIKOPE ) & Atika ( HARMLESS FACE )

` naddy

HAD fun!

first time being attached to a camp

not as a student

but as an instructor!

cool right

ahha

learnt alot from MARCUS

it was a total different experience all together& TIRING too ):

had to be in the water for almost 3 quads of the day

i hate you MARCUS

torture me.

sobs.

did high element once in today's programme!

ROCK WALL

had fun climbing too

but was too drained ):

thanks to MY JOY (: , HAHAHAKIM (: , ACE (: & HWA JIA (HJ) (:

FOR MAKING MY DAY!

ouhh and we got locked in the rock wall equip store

THANKS TO THAT MARCUS!

but he's a good mentor (: no offence. ahha.

NIGHT TIME!
slept around 2 in the morning and wake up about 3 times before really going to wash up >.<
SLEEPY
ouhh but before that

we did alot of crap

had fun with atika (SHY BUT LIKE TO HIT!) ,fieza (FIRST AIDER) and er ARIFFIN (STUPID MAT)

& my mentor crap larhs

lie on me,the mattress & try to hug me cos he stink

and want me & my mattress to stink also!

GRR . . . HAIYA!

it was fun.

looking forward to the campfire on thursday

have to rush back to SARIMBUN

as i have another camp with another school on that day

hope can make it (:

and we hitch a ride all the way to kranji (:

ST MARGARET'S CAMP IS ONE OF THE BEST!

as i heard (: especially the campfire!

and happy anniversary.

i wish you're still here.

` naddy